Random thoughts

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Another ice coffee or ice tea or Gatorade? Shit I’m almost out.

There’s a sale at Victoria’s Secret, again. Really bad for my wallet but I need a new bag, shirt, pants, perfume, etc because I want it.

I haven’t planned my story app in days too busy on other websites. There’s still NOTHING new.

I’m cold I want ice cream.

Protests? Meh. I don’t care. Don’t throw rocks at my car again asshole. I’ll slap you with a lawsuit.

I sued my employer, what makes you think I won’t sue you?

I have nothing to fear the inside of my mouth. I broke my tooth and it’s decayed.

Why can’t people leave me the fuck alone and let me write in peace!?

Don’t look at me like that. Don’t look at me at all.

Face masks are stupid. This entire thing is stupid.

You remember the times it was a big deal when you went to public places with your face covered? Those days are over.

If people asked, ‘hey, did you test positive for an STD?’ every time you went in public as mush as they did COVID, well…

I’m not looking forward to going back to work.

I’m looking forward to the day I get another job.

The guy in my writing I obviously slept with. Do you need concrete details about that too?

Relationships are stupid. Marriage is stupid too. It’s a contract.

I don’t need to date assholes anymore, I live with one.

I’m emotionally unavailable because I don’t have emotions.

The only person I care about is my daughter.

Hmmm, let me think… No.

He’s hot, I’d sleep with him. Expect for the fact he’s too straight edge.

I don’t have issues in that department. I have issues in the giving a fuck department.

I think the answer is I need new sunglasses.

I need to rethink this selling on Amazon bullshit.

I don’t know what I’m planning to do with my characters in this story. I’m just writing a crime novel.

I’m not drunk. I wish I was.

I really think that much about him. I write about him sometimes. Maybe I need a therapist. Fuck that shit. I’d rather waste money other places.

Never ever

Did I have sex with criminal.
I’m not sure if I knew he got drunk and robbed a gas station before I started sleeping with him. Okay, I did he talked about it — he served his time and was on probation.

Did I have sex with a coworker.
Well, yeah.

Did I have sex with more then one coworker.
Not something I really want to talk nor think about. Let’s just say one of them was terrible in bed.

Had sex with the same sex.
Another thing I don’t want to talk about. It’s not like I planned or enjoyed it.

Date more then one person at once.
3. Why not? It’s not like they cared if they knew.

Cheat on someone.
Not the best thing I did.

Had sex at work.
Of course and to this day, the big people don’t have a clue I did it because I was a good worker, great at hiding shit and minding my own business.

Got caught making out with someone at work.
By a security guard, he thought it was funny.

Meetup with someone at a hotel only to have sex.
Quite a few times. Hey, sometimes that’s the only way you’re going to get it.

Cried way out of traffic ticket.
Yeah, that worked for me for a while until the last time I legitimately blew a stop sign.

Denied catching feelings for someone you were only hooking up with.
Hmmm… I’m not sure. I didn’t really have feelings and if I did, I admit I only fell for one out of the many.

Deleted every single text message.
All the time. It could be a stupid short conversation and still gone. I never was one for keeping conversations on my phone.

 

 
Disclaimer: Got this idea from an App. No, my dear I don’t advise you to do stupid things but you probably will anyway. It’s called life.

14 reasons relationships suck

Missed Valentine’s Day this year so here’s 14 thoughts about why relationships are stupid.



1. If you’re dating, you’re obligated to buy something for your partner every holiday. Miss one? See what happens.

2. At one point you’ll be asked when you’re going to commit, if you’re already committed they ask you when you’re going to be single.

3. You can’t always say what you’re thinking unless you want to create tension or have an argument.

4. You can’t spend money on whatever the hell you want without your partner either getting suspicious or bitching at you for spending.

5. You’ve been in a relationship or married a while? Your romance is dead. The letters, gifts, and spontaneity died a while ago.

6. Your sex sessions got less and/or shorter. Why? You’ve done everything at this point and your partner feels like they no longer have to work for it. They just want to hit it and go back to sleep.

7. Unless you have an open relationship, you can’t sleep with whoever you want if those needs aren’t being met.

8. You can be attracted too one or multiple people when you’re still in a relationship but again, can’t act upon unless you want drama.

9. You have to listen to your partner talk about shit you don’t care about.

10. Third parties get involved or give their opinion about what is or isn’t working in your relationship.

11. People ask when you’re going to have kids. If you already have kids, they ask you when you’re having more!

12. You’re either morally or legally abided to them. (Like marriage, you can’t just get out without getting a lawyer involved.)

13. Emotions, feelings, tend to get involved. You’re not sure if you signed up for that shit.

14. You can’t just always say and do whatever the hell you want. You have to consider your partner at times too.

Crystal madness

It’s based on my life.

(Because I had my mind erased, work at a big magazine, have a hot husband in the military, travel all over the place, and met a witch and pirates! Haha. Not.)

Okay, not really. Not at all.

I took a short story from college and twist and spun it to see if I had a story with it and I did.

It’s probably completely different from the content or context you saw from. But that’s the point, why am I going to continue to constantly produce the same thing?

Okay… the guy sounds like some guys I dated or hooked up with the way he talks. A psychologist would probably ask me about that. Sure, he sounds like a dick sometimes (like my husband) but he’s there on the roller coaster with Madison the entire time.

A Scorpios mind

Fuck him
I don’t want to fuck him
Fuck it he’s fucking hot I’m hot
All I want to do is fuck
we’re opposites I can’t
but I can fucking fuck him
it’d be intense and hot as hell
maybe I have a sex addiction
it’s not an addiction
I like how it feels
who doesn’t
if people had more orgasms they
wouldn’t be miserable fucks
my coworker is a cunt because
she’s a virgin
being a virgin is boring
who doesn’t enjoy sex?
holy fuck
I’m going to fuck
and suck some dick later
have my partner go down
if he doesn’t somebody else will
I don’t go long without it
in a relationship or not
not everyone can handle me
and they wondered why I had
3 partners at once one time
I’ve been good since
I think
there’s this new person
I want to fuck
if things got sour I would
I can feel he wants to fuck too
I see how he looks at me
If I’m smart at anything
it’s sex
I’d be a sex worker if I could
but I’d get bored
and actually would rather
make money other ways

I published a book

“Hippie Girl” is based on real events from my life. It’s fictionalized for legal and storytelling reasons.

‘Oh, you’re trying to cover you ass?’ Maybe. I mean, I still work at the place all the chaos and illegal shit went down. I recall asking a few people in the story of it was okay I’d use them such as my sister, husband, and mother. All the names have been changed too.

‘Why?’ To respect people’s privacy, legal reasons, and we don’t need the assholes to know I definitely wrote about them!

‘So then, what is it about?’ You have to read it to find out, haha. If you’ve been here awhile you have an idea. All my work together could create a version of this fucked up story.

But basically… this girl, Lila finds herself constantly in weird situations with guys. Her mother’s death definitely didn’t help any. It’s like she replaced one problem for another! Eventually, shit happens and she has to leave all of that behind.

‘Is Lila you?’ Yes and no. Yes, she goes through some shit I did. And no, that’s not my name and she’s a ‘fictional’ character.

‘What does your husband think?’ He wants to read it but I don’t think that’ll be a good idea. We talked about it’s context last night. He seemed to have forgot I had a threesome.

‘Why I didn’t publish it under my marital name?’ Well, for the fact I want to have my private life, private and I’m the only Sandra in this world I know of work that last name. I doubt I’ll ever be that big. But either way, I don’t want to be found! Whereas my maiden name, good luck! I also had this conversation with my mother before she passed and my husband before we married. My mother said, ’it’s your name, do what you want’.

‘What are you doing next?’ Honestly, I don’t know. If you want my honest opinion this story isn’t going to be successful. That’s okay, I knew that. It’s an odd story. Nobody knows who I am. It’s probably not that great. I didn’t even want to write it but it was a monkey on my back. Now the air is clear I can focus on things I actually want to write. It’s not about money. Nobody is paying me shit expect my employer!
 

30 Scorpio secrets

Because I’m turning 30…

 
1. Your boyfriend flirted with me.
2. Your boyfriend kissed me — he’s a bad kisser, don’t worry I don’t want to sleep with him!
3. Slept with someone’s boyfriend, not intentionally of course.
4. When in Rome…
5. If I have to think about my feelings for you, they’re non-existent.
6. Hooked up with an ex(s) once, twice, or thousand times because the sex was good.
7. Don’t have any/many friends.
8. Like to be alone, value solitude, and don’t need people to be happy.
9. If I’m in a relationship with you and don’t want to have sex with you; you can be sure you’re either turning me off or I’m sleeping with someone else.
10. Depending on who you are, I probably won’t give you an honest answer how many people I slept with.
11. I do pick and choose.
12. I don’t find people fascinating.
13. Ideas are more interesting.
14. If you want to seduce me, don’t bother. I either want you or I don’t.
15. Should I think about an ex? It’s only because they were good in bed and I’m bored with you.
16. I go to the gym for my sanity, not because I’m trying to lose weight or reach some goal.
17. I don’t believe in one soulmate, we have many.
18. These days I spend more time fantasizing about doing crazy shit to my hair.
19. I was a terrible student.
20. Yeah, teachers and peers didn’t get me. I lived in my own world and didn’t care.
21. I developed thick skin early in life.
22. Sometimes I could be angry and not know why.
23. I assume most people don’t like me and I’m okay with that, I don’t like most people.
24. I can be secretive but trust me, I’m brutally honest too.
25. I’m probably hiding some past things from my partner.
26. I probably hide my money too.
27. There is but one person I truly trust in this world, myself.
28. Should I check someone out? Hardly ever. They’d have to have nice arms or eyes to get my attention.
29. I don’t believe in marriage.
30. Now I understand. The only person I’ll truly love in this world is my daughter.

Married life is like

Man: I should get another girlfriend.
Woman: Do it. It will make divorce a lot easier.

She’s serious.

Man: Let’s do it.
Woman: Do what? That? I’m good. It’s not that great.

Man: It’s your fault it’s not great.
Woman: Yeah because I enjoy a big sweaty man on top of me crushing me.

Man: I’m tired. I’m going to bed early.
Woman: No you’re not. You’re going to play on your phone in the room for two hours. You don’t want to deal with the baby.

Man: I wished I stayed at work.
Woman: Me too.

Man: Don’t spend money, work with what you got.
Woman: …

She thinks yeah, right. I’ll go spend it and not tell you amongst other things.

Man: You’re paying child support.
Woman: Haha. You think the court would give you full custody? You’d have to find daycare and you can hardly handle her over an hour.

Man: You only want help from your family.
Woman: I don’t see my family, they live an hour away. And right, if I was divorced that’s where’d I go.

No offense. She doesn’t like your family but tolerated it. She never ‘seeked help’ from anyone she’s done it on her own — your family would be the last people she’d go too.

Twin flame

His sun was my moon
my moon was opposite of his
his blue eyes stared
in the pits of my green
he could do push-ups on me
I could knee him in the nuts

He snorted coked
I was high a couple times
He drank at work
I kept my mouth shut
he was also my supervisor

He called me ‘hippie girl’
said he loved me and wanted
to run away with me
I never said those words
I thought he wasn’t serious
then he got arrested
quit and ran from the cops
without me

My life went on
without him
I had a baby in July 2019
a year after we were
high and drunk at a party
and he said he was
falling in love with me

No, it’s not his
No, I didn’t name
my daughter after him
but time to time I think
how could someone be
insane like him?

Coming out as straight

I’m sorry people on the internet and people for coming out as bisexual in college. I made bisexuality look like a phase because it was for me. Two seconds with a woman I was like ‘this is gross, never again!’ I don’t think it’d matter if I was in a threesome against my will, I’d still have the same reaction!

Vaginas leak fluid. Vaginas sweat and smell bad if you don’t wash them or wash them correctly! Some have more hair than others. If you’re into that, fine. I’m not. I’d rather have a penis that comes in different sizes and colors. Some have more hair on their ball sacks than others. So. Well you don’t have to worry about them leaking any other fluid besides cum in your mouth.

Too graphic? Oh well. I assume most of you are over 18 and can handle it.

I’ve made my point. I am a woman that likes men. I am ‘straight’ ignoring all the screws up in my head lose. Every time I had an affair it was random or some muscular guy with tanned skin and blue eyes. I have a thing for guys with nice arms. Everything else doesn’t really matter.

Oh and I got knocked up after a night drinking margaritas. The millionth time I took plan B it didn’t work. At least I know who the father is, my husband.