he said. He’s so impressed by my life choices from what I drive and up and leaving workplaces. Haha. Is that supposed to charm my pants off and make me want to sleep with him? It doesn’t. We’ve done it before — several times. We even tried dating each other open and ‘exclusively’ a handful of times.
So what? We’re ’friends that talk and never see each other’. Why? I’m a mother. That’s the only thing that’s changed between us. He may flirt but I don’t even respond with anything suggestive or serious. Why play the game 20 year olds do? We’re in our 30s.
I’d be lying if I said I don’t like him. Obviously I do if I’m still talking to him after all this time. I never wanted to give him false hope. He was the guy I saw everytime I was conflicted over someone else. I never picked him though. He thought it was because he wasn’t enough. No, it’s because some things aren’t meant for you. We’re better off as ‘friends’.
said some broad from a 90s show I heard but didn’t watch. She also said that’s why they were divorced or not happy. Then I can’t help but think of my first love.
To be honest, I don’t even know. I’ve been in and out of love numerous times in my life. So it makes me wonder, what is the legit feeling? The feeling of being ‘in love’ fades whether you’re with someone for six months or years.
I think back to when I was seventeen and ‘in love’ with this guy from Argentina. I talked to him for years and he helped me get over my middle school crush I blamed for my eating disorder back then. ‘He liked a model and it wasn’t me, I’m blahblahblah’ teenager garbage. Long story short I eventually met him and my mother sent my big brother to kick his ass. She was pissed I met someone off the internet. We still snuck around and talked. We were going to runaway to NYC and get married. My dream was to be a model (HAHA) and he wanted to be director. He asked me to marry him and even started working on my ring.
I’m not sure what happened next but I guess, I developed a crush on a college boy and he was history. Then I had one relationship after another, sometimes with multiple people, and told him about it. So, we still talked only as friends and occasionally do to this day.
Now I’m married and have an one and half year old. He’s still single but I guess he’s happy in whatever country he’s in doing photography. My dream is and always been writing and editing. It’s crazy to think it’s been fourteen years.
We are the sign of transformation. People often overlook it or think we’re the sign of sex. Everyone enjoys sex, it’s not only a Scorpio thing!
Evolved Scorpio adapts better than most people and has the ability to transform lives around them. Whether or not they do, depends on who they are or circumstances. It’s not one sign fits all. That’s why less evolved Scorpios or those going through a rough time are more manipulative or secretive than others.
But we are a mystery, it doesn’t mean we’re necessarily hiding anything. It means we aren’t an open book. We’re not going on stage and talking about our personal lives. I mean, unless we’re comedians making jokes about it. We have a good sense of humor. You can hardly offend us unless you make assumptions. We hate assumptions or people that are closed-minded.
You wanna piss us off? Question anything about us. Terrible idea to piss us off actually. It’s like Scorpio has a protective magic shield called karma. You would think they casted a spell on you, no. You think they’re stupid? They know how the universe works.
Scorpio doesn’t give two shits about being popular or liked. Especially when they were in school. They enjoyed not having people hover over them and that they can be themselves with no judgement. Though sure, people probably did. They didn’t care. Life has given them thick skin.
So no, we’re not buying anyone’s bullshit. You’re better off convincing the more naive signs.
Mandatory meeting, they said.
Why, nobody is getting harassed?
That I know or care to know of.
I know someone called the owner a narcissist and you only do well if
you’re a “yes man”.
I can somewhat see how that’s true
counting the few comments in the passing
or just this weird vibe he gives off
he asked me to be in a commercial
with him, why? I’m not being a
narcissistic but we all know
I’m the most attractive female here
because I’m ‘young’
so why not try to make yourself
look good? I declined
I don’t give a fuck about
last thing I want is people
coming here and thinking I sell shit
it’s bad enough everyone refuses
to ‘do their part’ and disinfectant
the store, nope I was called upon
to do it along with everything else
I’m off subject
only comment someone has made to me
is “damn” and looked at my ass
he’s ‘special needs’ and has
no idea when he’s being inappropriate
is that an excuse, no?
I almost gaged at the part
‘don’t have sexual relationships at work, have them outside if you’re both consenting it’s not harassment’
why? Gee, perhaps I had sexual
relationships with men at a job
not here, the men are all boring
or too old
one of the few times I take pride
nobody has a clue about
my past or who I am
he said. Why? Because they now sell appliances? You know, back in the old days people had to wash everything by hand. Essential? My ass. Like the owner will do anything to stay in business. You can bet your ass I’m going to report him if I’m pushed to work if another shutdown happens. Not because I’m lazy. I have a one year old daughter. I don’t want to be out in this shit. Hell, I order everything online. A privilege I know, I’m sorry Amazon workers. You also shouldn’t be out in this shit.
My husband works at a car dealership as a manager of some sort. He’d be sent home. Why? Cars aren’t essential either. You’re sent home by the government, where the hell do you need to go? Exactly. In old times people also took buses, taxis, or farther more horses to get places. Cars are also a luxury.
So if there’s anything you learn at all what is necessary, think of the shit you have and don’t necessarily need. I bet somewhere one of your ancestors is laughing and rolling their eyes at you.
he’s the only one
around here I had a
few conversations with
he knows my name
I don’t know his
for the best
I know myself
one thing will lead
and that’s that
I have the tendency
not to get attached
but they do
I’m at my point in life
I don’t need that
it doesn’t mean
his ass and his girlfriend
so they can all hate me
and not my sister
he’s a snake
she does nothing all day
but probably fuck him
in the service halls
I’m not there anymore
should they remember
I was there first and
reputation proceeds me
but remember I’m also
not the one that said
‘DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR KEYS?
I miss you?’
what about your girlfriend?
it never happened
it never will
but here we go,
I’ve stumbled upon
another man interested
in my personal life
giving off some vibes
it doesn’t end
I said his girlfriend would eventually get a job at the mall with us because she constantly hangs out there all day with her kids.
And I said when that happens you can bet your ass I’m out of there. Yeah, before they decided to tell us when they were opening I got a new job away from all that bullshit — like we knew I would.
Because I’ve said, there’s only so much corrupt bullshit I will take. I guess I’ve met my quota when great old coronavirus came out and struck our world. I learned to take a great opportunity when it comes across me. You know how many jobs I turned down for the mall? Too many. Was it worth it? Absolutely not. Let’s not get into the owner not wanting to pay workers and me having to sue him when I had my baby for pocketing my PFL. All while all these stores are leaving and they can’t keep up with the requirements to keep running, it’s surprising they gIt the flag to be open. Probably lied their asses off.
Anyway, yeah that’s all behind me. The new supervisor with his girlfriend he probably fucks in all the old places I fucked ‘Dan’ haha. He had an issue with us even talking yet it was okay for him to sexually assault me numerous times with his girlfriend nearby!? The only reason why he got his position is by snitching on my sisters boyfriend and getting him fired. He has no talent or knowledge of the things that need to be fixed in the mall. I guess if you successfully kiss ass and rat on people you deserve a promotion in those places. I guess that’s why now I’m making as much as you and not working there.
the first one I went too as a kid
It had a ‘magic’ fountain back then
the place I went too as a teenager to get all my school clothes (they had stores back then)
where I met my future husband online from at dating website for the first time
my place of employment for three years
the place I was working at when my mother was diagnosed with cancer
where I got involved with someone I didn’t know was a satanist until he told me
where I was after I received a phone call she was dead, clocked in and out of work that day upset
where I my supervisor and I fell in love and had a fucked up relationship
the place I was working at when I was pregnant and had to leave when I was in labor
job I returned too after having a baby
job I worked with my sister and got to see here several days a week
also the job the owner tried to fuck me over numerous times and pocketed my PFL and I sued him
the place with a toxic environment and shitty new supervisor that also sexually assaulted with his girlfriend nearby
the place that wanted me back during this COVID shit part time (less money, less time with my daughter) and after everything, I didn’t see why I should it was a good place once years ago…
and so I left and got a new one
she doesn’t have
she’s sick of
on the internet
when her brain
thinks about him again
‘oh, why didn’t I runaway
when I had the chance?’
because she’s an idiot
she chose ‘stability’
over ‘being in love’
do you blame her?
who wants to be on
the run with a criminal?
‘but other people…’
believe me she knows
none of them
she had such intensity
and an connection with
now her days are
waiting for shit to pass
and being a mother
sometimes she wonders
if the father is the father
and her hair is long
and full of secrets
She doesn’t want to talk
but this is her being
to tell you she’ll be back
when she feels like it