Because I’m pregnant

I don’t get special treatment
no one holds the door open for me
people increasingly like to cut me off when I’m walking

People at work
still expect me to do everything
like I have been
I still got frowned upon my
nosey coworker when I take a break
though she takes multiple

People I’m associated with
through marriage more so expect me
to worship the ground they walk on
and kiss their ass
and talk shit about me when I’m
on the other corner of the room
or behind my back

Strangers say ‘congratulations’
as a way to greet me

People at the gym need to comment
on how impressed they are
I workout or point at my stomach
like they’re 4 years old and they
haven’t seen a pregnant chick before

Acquittances need to greet me
with how big I’m getting
like I don’t have eyes and an mirror

My husband is still my husband
and will fight with me regardless
I don’t have ESP

There’s not a day I’m not either
invisible, in the center of the floor, or someone’s target

And some of them want to see
pictures or the baby
and I’m thinking, you know
pregnancy hasn’t affected my memory
or ability to put
one and two together
y’all treat me
like shit or talk shit about me behind my back
and you think for a second or two
you try to kiss my ass,
it’ll change anything?
I might be blonde but
I’m not a fucking idiot

All this time I have kept to myself
kept my I don’t give a fuck persona
and dealt with you crazy people
treat others how
you want to be treated
they say
if you were pregnant,
would you want to deal with this?
No
I’m glad (not really) I’m bringing a child in this world
full of hypocrites but
she’ll know the truth

Thoughts about the election

I’m aware I said I was going to let my URL expire, and I did. I haven’t decided yet if I’m creating a new one and so I am here to talk about the bullshit going on.

 

#1 If so many of you have an issue with Trump, why didn’t you vote?
I can’t tell you how many people I came across that said they didn’t vote, though they are registered and had nothing going on that’d prevent them from taking a few minutes out of their day to mark a sheet of paper. You can’t expect someone to win a election if you don’t vote for them. Then piss, moan, and start a riot over it like an child.

 

#2 Not happy with the result? Change it.
Go sign the petition https://www.change.org/p/electoral-college-electors-electoral-college-make-hillary-clinton-president-on-december-19. It probably won’t do anything about it given the rules set in the system for two hundred years. You could start another protest though all it would do is annoy the shit out of people. You could plan for the future so something like this doesn’t happen again.

 

#3 Take in consideration of what you’re asking people to do and if you would seriously do it in their shoes.
If you liked the person you originally voted for or pledged to, would you change the vote? Hell no. Would a bunch of protesters yelling at you, sending you messages, etc change your vote? Nope. What would you think of it? It’s ridiculous they expect me to change my view, sacrifice my job, and/or pay a fine for them because they don’t like the candidate. They wouldn’t do the same for me, why should I do it for them? I shouldn’t. I have nothing to gain from it. When are these people going to move on, grow up, and stop acting like children.

 

#4 I’m not crazy about who won either (and I did vote, for Hillary)
You don’t see me going around making a scene, posting about it on social media, or complaining to everyone I know about it. Why? Because that’s not me. He did say a lot of things I didn’t agree with either. It doesn’t mean he’s a bad man, but maybe a bad mouth. I don’t know him very well, I just know what I’ve heard. I know you shouldn’t a judge a person by their words but actions. Wait to see his actions, not words. Everyone deserves a chance. And if you disagree, do something to change it. Don’t go around like an angry child. It shows you’re the bad one, not him. Just my opinion nobody asked for but we all get sick of the nonsense.

My Secret Operation System

We all have one. If you say you don’t, you’re lying.

 

Don’t ask, don’t tell.

Simple as that. If you don’t seem at all interested, why would I tell you what I am doing or thinking at any given moment?

 

I prefer you don’t ask

I don’t like questions. So you must have very good communication skills or something to get information out of me. I’m very good at holding/withholding information, by the way.

 

List of things I won’t tell you:

Anything at all about my personal life or background.

I’m not stupid, I know better.

 

I really don’t care about your problems

You talk all you want, it willy only annoy and bore me. I won’t emphasize or sympathize with you, I’m not a fool.

And hey, I have my own problems as well. I don’t talk about them.  I certainly don’t bitch, moan, or complain either.

 

I will never thank you for criticism

I just won’t. Criticism is never a positive thing. There is nothing you can say or do to prove me wrong. Say whatever the fuck you want though, you will anyways. It doesn’t bother me.

 

I remember everything

Not returning my texts or emails? Okay, fine. In the future when you ask me for favors or want to talk to me, I won’t be around. It’s not a threat, it’s a promise. Do not underestimate my ability to ignore, remove, and block people that don’t matter from my life.

Treated me/people I actually know badly? I remember that. Don’t be blinded by me ‘accepting’ your friend request on Facebook, either. You know I only did that to see what the fuck you wanted. Nothing apparently, you just wanted to stalk me.

Against.

Those who

Spread bullshit

Rumors and lies.

 

Those who

Talk about a person or group behind their back.

No balls to talk to them face to face in person.

 

Those who

Can’t speak, think, or act for themselves.

Need the approval of others.

 

Those who

Purposely indirectly/directly offend us.

Try to play mind games.

 

Those who

Make assumptions.

Don’t care to listen to the person they are judging.

 

Those who

Are more in love with themselves.

Self-promotion comes first.

 

Those who

Make you feel you do not matter.

You are too different to be ‘one of them’.

 

Those who

Don’t care to look at their reflection.

And wonder why someone blowed them off.

 

Those who

Have no problem watching and stalking you online.

Secretly dislike you because what you did, do, didn’t, or don’t do.

 

Those who

Make comments about how you should change.

Ignore you because you won’t, then gossip behind your back.

 

Those who

Hate you because you don’t worship the ground they walk on.

Hate you because you think, act, and speak for yourself.

 

Those who

Think you’re just another idiot running your mouth.

Don’t realize they are the reason you are.

 

Those who

Take what you say or do out of context.

Never stopped to ask you what is going on.

 

Those who

Think it is acceptable to lie, cheat, and steal.

Think it is acceptable to break the law.

 

Those who

Think it is acceptable to cause someone pain.

Think it is acceptable to ignore everything.

 

Those who

Won’t admit when they are wrong.

Continue to pretend they are perfect.

The Truth

Society…
You taught us from a young age to shut up.
If we say something we sound dumb or look insane.
… Get mocked and publicly shamed for it.

You taught us we do not matter.
Why defend our case, why tell you what is really going in our lives?
Even if you sound like you care, you probably don’t.
… You have your own lives, why do you care about ours? You don’t.

It’s best to be invisible.
To avoid all the nonsense and bullshit that comes with speaking.
People pretending to care, people using you, and misunderstanding.
… It’s best they think what they want, they’re ignorant anyways.

We are all useless.
There’s people better than us everywhere.
We do not matter.
Just another human being. But hey, we have freedom of speech if we dare pretend our voices matter and we are important.

Though heaven forbids us…
If we do, if we say
We think we are entitled
We are no better than all the other nut jobs in the world.

We all are
full of shit
Why pretend?
Why fucking care?

Keep to ourselves.
Do our own thing.
Mute everyone else out.
… They do the same thing to us

If you’re not on my side
I will burn you in the future
Society taught me too
If you’re fake or try to use me
I can see right through you
Can’t say I never warned you
It’s an ugly game
I won’t help you
You’re on your own
You are also worthless
…How does it feel now? To be invisible
I don’t give a flying fuck about you.

Philosophy

Sex.

Sleep with whoever you want. Make sure you’re single. Make your intentions obvious — it makes it a lot easier for you and your partner emotionally. Don’t fuck and tell.

 

Relationships.

Don’t be a scumbag. Don’t cheat. Why be in a relationship with someone when you clearly don’t want to be? You’re better off ending it before it gets to that point.

 

Education.

You don’t have to go to college, if you don’t want too. If you go, don’t complain about it. It’s your choice.

 

Career.

It is what you make it.

 

Marriage.

Your choice.

 

Weddings.

Skip the boring ceremony. Have a bigass party. Get really drunk.

 

Abortion.

Your body. Your choice.

 

Body modifications.

Your body. Your choice.

 

Art.

Everything is art.

 

Stories.

Everyone has a story.

 

Technology.

Everyone plays god behind a computer screen.

 

Religion.

Believe what you want. Don’t shove your beliefs down other peoples throats.

 

Other opinions.

Don’t be an ass. If I didn’t ask you for your opinion, I don’t care.

 

Other things.

What you make it.