His voice

sounds familiar 

not quite like his was 

but too inviting 

I know he’s trying 

to be nice or professional 

yet the way he looks

at me says otherwise 

attraction maybe 

on whose or what end

I’ve hardly had a look

at his face 

he’s tan and has nice arms 

shit

I’m not doing that again 

though desks and empty 

places were fun 

Never ever

Did I have sex with criminal.
I’m not sure if I knew he got drunk and robbed a gas station before I started sleeping with him. Okay, I did he talked about it — he served his time and was on probation.

Did I have sex with a coworker.
Well, yeah.

Did I have sex with more then one coworker.
Not something I really want to talk nor think about. Let’s just say one of them was terrible in bed.

Had sex with the same sex.
Another thing I don’t want to talk about. It’s not like I planned or enjoyed it.

Date more then one person at once.
3. Why not? It’s not like they cared if they knew.

Cheat on someone.
Not the best thing I did.

Had sex at work.
Of course and to this day, the big people don’t have a clue I did it because I was a good worker, great at hiding shit and minding my own business.

Got caught making out with someone at work.
By a security guard, he thought it was funny.

Meetup with someone at a hotel only to have sex.
Quite a few times. Hey, sometimes that’s the only way you’re going to get it.

Cried way out of traffic ticket.
Yeah, that worked for me for a while until the last time I legitimately blew a stop sign.

Denied catching feelings for someone you were only hooking up with.
Hmmm… I’m not sure. I didn’t really have feelings and if I did, I admit I only fell for one out of the many.

Deleted every single text message.
All the time. It could be a stupid short conversation and still gone. I never was one for keeping conversations on my phone.

 

 
Disclaimer: Got this idea from an App. No, my dear I don’t advise you to do stupid things but you probably will anyway. It’s called life.

A Scorpios mind

Fuck him
I don’t want to fuck him
Fuck it he’s fucking hot I’m hot
All I want to do is fuck
we’re opposites I can’t
but I can fucking fuck him
it’d be intense and hot as hell
maybe I have a sex addiction
it’s not an addiction
I like how it feels
who doesn’t
if people had more orgasms they
wouldn’t be miserable fucks
my coworker is a cunt because
she’s a virgin
being a virgin is boring
who doesn’t enjoy sex?
holy fuck
I’m going to fuck
and suck some dick later
have my partner go down
if he doesn’t somebody else will
I don’t go long without it
in a relationship or not
not everyone can handle me
and they wondered why I had
3 partners at once one time
I’ve been good since
I think
there’s this new person
I want to fuck
if things got sour I would
I can feel he wants to fuck too
I see how he looks at me
If I’m smart at anything
it’s sex
I’d be a sex worker if I could
but I’d get bored
and actually would rather
make money other ways

I published a book

“Hippie Girl” is based on real events from my life. It’s fictionalized for legal and storytelling reasons.

‘Oh, you’re trying to cover you ass?’ Maybe. I mean, I still work at the place all the chaos and illegal shit went down. I recall asking a few people in the story of it was okay I’d use them such as my sister, husband, and mother. All the names have been changed too.

‘Why?’ To respect people’s privacy, legal reasons, and we don’t need the assholes to know I definitely wrote about them!

‘So then, what is it about?’ You have to read it to find out, haha. If you’ve been here awhile you have an idea. All my work together could create a version of this fucked up story.

But basically… this girl, Lila finds herself constantly in weird situations with guys. Her mother’s death definitely didn’t help any. It’s like she replaced one problem for another! Eventually, shit happens and she has to leave all of that behind.

‘Is Lila you?’ Yes and no. Yes, she goes through some shit I did. And no, that’s not my name and she’s a ‘fictional’ character.

‘What does your husband think?’ He wants to read it but I don’t think that’ll be a good idea. We talked about it’s context last night. He seemed to have forgot I had a threesome.

‘Why I didn’t publish it under my marital name?’ Well, for the fact I want to have my private life, private and I’m the only Sandra in this world I know of work that last name. I doubt I’ll ever be that big. But either way, I don’t want to be found! Whereas my maiden name, good luck! I also had this conversation with my mother before she passed and my husband before we married. My mother said, ’it’s your name, do what you want’.

‘What are you doing next?’ Honestly, I don’t know. If you want my honest opinion this story isn’t going to be successful. That’s okay, I knew that. It’s an odd story. Nobody knows who I am. It’s probably not that great. I didn’t even want to write it but it was a monkey on my back. Now the air is clear I can focus on things I actually want to write. It’s not about money. Nobody is paying me shit expect my employer!
 

Worst sex experiences

I feel like I’ve talked about this in bits and pieces but haven’t covered it completely. And the fact I have no other ideas this was inspired by a podcast I listened and forgot about.

 

You’re a virgin, he’s a virgin
You don’t know what the fuck you’re supposed to do besides penis meets vagina.

So okay, yeah I just laid there and thought, ‘Is this going to hurt? Why doesn’t it hurt? Why is he so hairy? Do all guys have that much hair on their body?’ I wasn’t into it. It was something I wanted to get off my bucket list. I showed no emotion and he kept apologizing because he thought he was doing something wrong. After I was thinking, ‘Okay, may be better with someone else!’ My poor then boyfriend.

 

Period sex
I don’t care what you say, if you have a vagina you most likely tried it at least once! I’ll save all the bloody details and focus on the worst one.

In the shower. It should work right? You don’t bleed in water. Well, it doesn’t work if the guy is 2 feet taller than you and you try to go at it! Then you have to turn the water off to avoid slipping or breaking your neck. That didn’t work either. Then came the bed. I said ‘put a towel down’ he still got coated in shit and it bothered him and our attempts were over. Not all guys can handle it.

 

Drunk anal sex

Let’s just say I was highly intoxicated one night and agreed to try anal with my then boyfriend. I don’t remember how the hell the conversation went about. I just know the second he tried to force it in it hurt like a motherfucker and I screamed! That did not happen… or I think it didn’t anyway.

 

Slapping, choking, “suck my dick”
If you’re into bondage it’s one thing. But another thing if the person you’re sleeping with is not!

I find it to be a huge turnoff when a guy comes on to me sexually aggressive. I don’t like to be hit or choked any time, why would sex be different? It shouldn’t be. I don’t want to be a hypocrite, I did like it with someone else. So the problem was with whom and how hard he did it. And then demanding I suck his dick and chase me around shoving it in my face when I denied him up until I left!

 

Threesome
Some people like it, those that usually consent and plan for it!

I did not. I joked about it and found myself in an interesting fucked up situation. I’ve talked about it here numerous times before. Long story short, I wasn’t into vagina but my then whatever insisted I was to live out one of his fantasies. It was awkward as hell. I played along because I didn’t want to walk 2 hours home. No vagina did not taste good nor was anything I’d ever want to go near again. I didn’t enjoy being told to watch him fuck someone else. I threw a condom at him and told him to go fuck himself. Then he stopped with her and came after me. Forced me down to do it though I was clearly done.

 

One night stand with Small
I call him Small because he had a small penis he didn’t know how to use. Hell, my pinky was bigger and could have given me more pleasure. The day after he invited me over to his parents house for dinner… I met his mom on the second date! We hung out in the living room the entire time. There wasn’t a third…

 

Blowup doll face
There once was a guy I hooked up in random places a few times. One time was the woods. He laid on some wood chips and told me to ride him. My knees burnt and I was a dumbass that kept doing it. He had his mouth wide open the entire time…