what’s he doing
where he’s been
how much he said was true
if I ever actually felt
what I said
I had the ability to
shut off what I was
thinking and feeling
but I always met up with him
in spite of anything
to hookup
he’s not mine
never was and will be
nothing more
then a memory and secret

Is this the path
I’m meant to be on?
Am I happy?
why does all of this
feel like work
with no benefits?
what is the point?
what is the reason?